The Individual

Formerly a stranger,
now familiar like the back of your hand.
You once had an untapped affection for,

now holds the ability to turn your world upside down.
To consider love as an impossible dream,

only to consume your entire heart of it's capacity.

The individual who you once lived without,

only now to crave of an everlasting involvement.

Validity

Unfailing love & truth have been met together,

righteousness & peace have kissed.

Your love burns brighter than sunshine.

Verve

A choice to be free, a decision to be brave.
To live each day fantastically, graciously, courageously.

In the dark of the night when I call a name, it'll be your name.

Let's go everywhere together, even though we're scared,
because it's life, and it's happening,

and it's happening right now.

A Letter Of Love

Too good to be true?
Totally speechless, falling hard, falling fast.

At the mere sight of you I'm left weak,
butterflies consume me.

Something in your eyes makes me want to lose myself.
There's something in your voice that makes my heart beat fast.

A sincerity of hope that this feeling will last,

all the rest of my days.

If you could understand how much you mean to me,

if you could know how happy you're making me.

Never to think I could adore anyone as much,

ever in my life.

You set my heart in motion,

every word feels like a shooting star,

resting at the very edge of my emotions.
In you, I have been given exceedingly more than I ever asked for,

more than I had dared to allow myself to dream.

Absolutely terrified, I realise I'm in love.

For the first time, for the last time, in my one and only life.

Besides God, you are by far my greatest find.

I'm yours.

An Impetuous Leap

Overwrought, alert, exposed,

excited, thrilled and thankful.
Apprehensive, contingent, stunned,

blessed, ecstatic and joyful.
Fervor, audacious, devoted,

fidelity, privileged and playful.
Impetuously leaping in an unfamiliar dance,

thoughtfully and faithfully, in love.

An Inquisition

To be asked if you're worthy of me,
with an inability to promptly respond,

I consider if you're asked of comparable questions.
Brushed by an insecure importune,
a fictitious reality, a definitive romance.

A question on my lips will remain:

will you affirm yourself authentic?

So much to fall for,

and I'm caught in a rapid descent,

so much yet to apprehensively explore.
I submit to an uninvited envy,

though present only to protect a heart.
Trust: an uncomfortable, unfamiliar reliance,

an ignorant faith follows closely behind.

With inundated responsibility,

a question on my lips will remain:

ever will I be granted the opportunity to affirm myself authentic?

Dear Diary

How did I get here?
Amidst this chaos, I'm looking for love.

Devotion Of Emotion

Invisible insecurities,
I fall, to be held up by you.
A solicitous doubt of an unimaginable reality,
it's a killing so composedly taut.
Are we an unfolding recollection,
or a preferential attainment?

To lose you exerts a colossal qualm,
despite being of mine to lose.
Bound by my feelings,
subjugating me somewhat slowly.
So obliviously compliant,
thus crashing quite unquestionably for you.

Close enough to cautiously flit with butterflies,
yet proven distantly capable of encountering dismay.
A mind so preoccupoed, an infinite thought of you,
current advancements and entertained anticipations.
Lowering my guard,
I apprehensively desire.
Will the future line up with our truth?

Quest

Some don't have to search,
their niche found early in life,
so seemingly complacent and resigned.
Resentful, though generally I do not understand,
they too, seldom understand.

A searcher,
not unhappy, nor completely content.
Enduring to explore,
with a hope to apprehend.

To walk along the beach;
inevitably drawn to the ocean,
taken by its power and unceasing motion,
of it's mystery and unspeakable beauty.
Forests, mountains, deserts,
hiden rivers, and the restless cities,
attractions all accustomed.

Affliction as near as laughter.
Ambitious for life itself,
for anything ineffable it can offer.
To love, and to be loved,
relationships that will not impede the wanderings
nor prevent the search.

To prove oneself is futile,
to compete for love is trivial.
Wanderers and dreamers,
lovers who dare to ask of life
for everything that is beautiful.

Invaluable Ideals

Good morning text messages.

Making someone elses day.
Connecting emotionally to a song.
Having no plans.
Sleeping in my own bed after going away.
Taking time to smell flowers.
Freshly cleaned bed linen.
Bathing with candles.
Looking outside and seeing birds in the trees.
The smell of rain.
Gazing up at the heavens on a clear winters night.
Comfortable silences.
Sleeping with at least three blankets on my bed.
Receiving notes.
Sitting whilst having a shower, thinking over life.
Fond memories, inside jokes, beautiful hearts.
The sound of crickets at night.
Listening to the pitter patter of the rain.
Smiles from strangers.
Hope.

Knowing that hard times make me stronger,
even though they tear me apart at the time.

Desirous

They say sometimes you're further than the moon
sometimes closer than my skin.
You were closer than my skin
the evenings spent alone with you in bliss.
The mornings you awoke me with a gentle kiss,
the evenings I sat alone and reminisced.
Look up, look up, look up into the sky, love.
You see that moon shining so high above us?
I like to think it does, just because He loves us.

Indolent Endeavour

If I were the wind, ever omnipresent,
I would blow myself in your direction.
Disappearing into a whisper, a calm taken for granted,
tranquillity that only the sleeping can experience.
From the night I wandered, found you to catch me.
Discovered desolation and from lonliness grew courage.
Strong, I may be, still in my time of need.
To lay down low beyond the morning sky,
and wilt into the break of day, to live I will defy.

Our Affinity

When the coast was clear,
we'd jump the rooftops.
Drive for hours to forget the world,
lay next to you, to still be so distant.
The city at night looks endless,
the contrast of a real purpose and an urgent adolescence.

On these steps, the world was ours,
bowed my head toward your chest,
how we paid such close regard
to everything but beyond obstruction.
A moment stolen, to paint our picture,
a captured honest and pure affection,
to document the contrast: attraction & connection.

If we're to get beaten by this winter,
if we're to get strangled by regret
don't let our love of life and tension
float on by, a deprived attention.

Restoration

It's just us now.
Did I tell you I loved you today?
Sweep me off my feet.
For I don't want someone who wants to have me,
I want someone who wants to keep me.
I break in two, over you.

Resolve

When I'm stuck in traffic, miss the elevator,
whenever I turn back to answer the telephone just as I'm on my way out.
All the negligible things that irritate me.
I consider that it is exactly where I'm meant to be
at that very moment.

Aspiration

Live, love, laugh, play, rejoice, celebrate,
explore, discover, question, dare, understand, wonder, reflect,
create, care, conserve, nurture, share, help, hug, heal, inspire,
dream, engage, hope, behold.

Seeking Desideratum

I sit here,
my heart pounds inside my chest.
Voices swirl around like tornadoes within my mind,
well intended people comment.

My lips smile, like clockwork,
as if without thought.
The smile is forced,
if only to appease.

So long spent trying to please others,
to ask myself what I want seems rhetorical.
The question traversing in my mind is foreign,
though from me it demands an answer.

Absolutely confused,
altogether speechless.
I hesitate,
I'm unable to answer.

Voices so emphatic,
drowning out the sound of my own.
Intentions are blameless,
ideas are inaccurate.

Then a whisper,
a soft, gentle whisper.
Be still, admist the chaos.
I obey, I still myself.

To trust, if nothing else,
if no one else, I trust Him.
I discover exactly what I want,
He is all I need.

Recognition Of Worth

Every closed eye is not sleeping, every open eye is not seeing.

We live in a world where we look, but we don't truly see.

In a world where, from day one, we're taught to make sure we're looking out for ourselves, I've taught myself how to start looking out for people, followed swiftly by a decision to stop merely 'looking' at people, rather, my goal was to start 'seeing' people. To see people for who they are and to love them because of who they are.

A decision was made when I realised I had been seen. To this day I continue to be seen and not only am I seen but I am loved, a love and attention that I am most undeserving of.

It can be a costly decision at times but if I can spend my life trying to see people then my life is worth more having tried than to not try at all.

Consider that it is not what you look at that's important, it's what you see that matters.